What CS Means To Me....
Friendship. Friendship still remains one of the first priorities in my life especially at times like these. Times like these when people are changing, searching aimlessly for their place within the social scheme of high school, like my dad hunts for the cookies when my moms tries to hide them. He hunts so hard that I think maybe one day he’ll fall over, he’ll fall over…but I’ll be there…like my friends will be there for me if I ever do the same.
It’s hard to put down in words what CS means to me, but if a gun was held to my head and I were told to sum it up in one word, this, this friendship, is what it would be. I need this like oxygen, like oxygen, because it hurts too badly when I can’t hold onto it.
When I think of the people I have become friends with in CS, and then compare them to my friends outside of CS it makes me happy. Some people stick to the friends they have because their scared. They’re scared of change, they’re scared of being different, and maybe someone would notice. I used to be horrified. I was so naive when I thought it was impossible to open my mind to new ideas. No one made me…it just seemed to happen. I can’t seem to describe what I’m trying to get to, but if I were to name names maybe I would make it clear.
Take Cody Gertz for instance. In middle school, even in 9th grade I never thought I could have ever connected with Cody. I was too scared, he was just so smart, we were both so quiet, and just on two different levels. It seemed hopeless. I remember in 5th grade Cody and Keith were in an IPI class for reading. I had never been in IPI before but my teacher had told me to go because she felt I was at that level. They were playing some sort of star wars game that was supposed to improve our reading skills, but I was so different, and I didn’t want to give it a chance. I went once, and then the next few times I “mistakenly” forgot to go. I regret it. It sucks to look back and ask what could have happened if I took the other road. CS has given me this chance to meet people that literally open my mind and make me think. They make me think of ideas I could never have even begun to put a finger on because they were just too far away for me to grasp. Someone like Cody Gertz, who is so different from me, but so similar at the same time now, is why I need CS.
Running away from people who are different from me…like my dad runs away from my mom when she catches him…doesn’t work for me anymore.
:::pinches herself:::
get to work u silly girl.